Do you believe in yourself?
By Laura Cohn
Do you believe in yourself? That question was asked
of me and I had to stop to think about it. The answer I came up with
was...sometimes. I guess it depends on who I've been hanging out with. There
are people in my life who are really supportive and their belief in me helps me
believe in myself. There are other people who are truly negative and I find
being around their energy diminishes my own self-confidence a lot. I have
to be careful with that. As a sensitive person I can be affected by subtle
things.
When I was younger, I used to believe in myself a
lot. Now I focus more on believing in God. Not in a religious way,
but in a practical way. It's kind of like how I don't
question that the sun will rise and that there will be air for me to
breathe; that's how I believe that God is taking care of me and what I
need. (And there are times when I don't know what I need.) There have been so
many times when I believed in myself trying to do this or that and
I never did get very far. I was more of the "she's not
going to get there" girl. Some people still see me that way.
When I operate with the understanding
that "I of myself can do nothing" (to quote someone
who did some remarkable things while living with the human race)
it seems that there is nothing that I am fighting for or against when I
show up somewhere. Things that are supposed to happen do and things that aren't
supposed to happen don't matter anyway. I'm also given the ability to do
more than I think I can compared to what I accomplished when I was relying
solely on my belief in myself. My belief in myself can be shattered
pretty easily.
So I guess a better answer for me is that I do
better when I believe in God rather than when I believe in myself. And that
answer leads me to "I believe more in God than myself". And then that
kind of brings me to "I'd rather just believe in God and not worry about
myself." So then my real answer is, "I believe in God, not in
myself." And as I write that I can hear the complaints of my ego
wanting to be more than it is. But my ego will have to get over itself.
God's track record has earned my trust. My ego's track record has
convinced me to trust God more.
Blessings!
Laura
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