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By Antonio Freeman


Every man needs a change to see who he's lost. You! That beautiful young energetic model of a women his sun, his moon and his stars. Life places itself on pause while the rest of the world continues to go forward. He weeps, he dreams and he wishes. Wishes for things that he has never wish the lord for. He is the picture of pure sadness. He asks, “Is survival obtainable?” The answer seems as far from reality as the wish or dream that he has imaged. He has sleepless nights, no desire for the normality’s of life, no desire for affection nor correction. No desire to live, to love, to feel or to heal.

The equation is incomplete and will remain so...for as long as there is an abstinence of your “You”. You are his smile; you are everything that he has subconsciously lived for. “How could he have been so blind and thoughtless, that he could see “You”?” How could it be?

He must not have loved me! He must not have cared enough about me. I must not have given him everything that he wanted. Why could he have not seen it?

Everything I have and everything I don't have is still yet not enough...I still want more and I want it all. I want it all. That which I do not have weakens me. You, that woman. I desire you, I deserve you, and I feel you. I can not and will live with out you. But I must...because they say I should. But why..?

Eventually, thoughts like these enter our minds, men and women. They’re always followed by a tragic departure of a relationship. We are humans and the nature instincts of survival kicks in and tell us about ourselves and tend to show us more about ourselves that we would normally not care to discover. We have a choice to grow and live and we may become better humans.

My point is let’s not waiting until we are confronted with the above situations before we can “see” who are right in front us. Sometimes we look right throw the potential and we only see what “we want”. I have a goal to inspire my younger generation to not wait until it's too late.

First step is the education, the second is the action. I am developing information that will be revised for a young and mature ear. Emotions are commonly buried within, because it's been illustrated to us by our models that have shown us that showing emotions is a sign of weakness. Actually it a sign of maturity, it's a sign of self-esteem and self confidence, security in your being. It's time to continue the growth of our coming of the new decade. In each decade ideas gets younger and younger and here we are.

If you can be there for that person that has made any horrible mistake and he/her will do all to erase that from the record book, which should not even exist, find it in your heart to learn what it means to forgive and have forgiveness. Someone once told me that “you need more then Love, because Love won't fix it all” I feel that statement is untrue. Love is actually all you need if it's supported by both parties. Maturity. You can decide for yourself when the shoe is on the other foot.

 


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