Introspection

By Emily Bertolina

Life keeps ticking on faster than I expected.

And I'm still not on the path I know I’m being directed.

It's complicated lately just being respected.

When everyone you’re surrounded by is Bais introspected.

Lately I feel reckless, not giving a F***.

Concerned only with myself and making my next buck.

But the journey gets longer and I find myself stuck.

Outside looking in now with all but good luck.

I have had enough!

So I initiate a different mind state.

And stop allowing the small things to make me irate.

No complaints, no excuses.

For me there are no uses.

And when all is said and done, life goes on how I choose it.

Emotions just abuse me.

Then close ties lose me.

And here I am again reflecting--yet it is all still confusing.

What’s the difference, really, between right and wrong?

“To each his own” in the eyes of the beholder lives on.

I confess, no, I don't have all of the answers.

But I've got 21 years of experience with false romances.

It's exhausting life and staying in between the lines.

Doing what you should as far as everyone else is concerned.

Now I do what I feel is right.

But as crazy as it may sound I could die tonight.

Not talking suicidal just keeping it real alright.

Bringing unspoken realities into the light.

Speaking my heart with no association to spite.

This is my introspection: Goodnight.